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Is it Friday yet? That’s how I feel today. I need it to be the weekend already and it’s just Monday morning. Hopefully this week will get better not worse. I feel like the weekend went by so fast. I didn’t really do anything special but it feels like the days didn’t even happen. I did manage to do laundry (which is my most hated chore) so that’s a plus considering I was almost out of clean underwear and had started wearing my IVF panties. In case you’re wondering my IVF panties are these ones I’ve worn in previous IVF cycles that have glue stains from the estrogen patches I wear, but I digress.
My (pregnant) sister-in-law texted over the weekend that according to Dr. Google and Web MD she fractured her ribs somehow and was in serious pain. Her mid-wives office was not calling her back and she didn’t know what to do. She finally did hear back from them and all they told her was to go to the emergency room. Really helpful after not returning her phone call for 12 hours… Turns out it’s something called costochondritis and she didn’t really fracture her ribs (I was doubtful of this anyway), she bruised or damaged the cartilage and/or muscle between the ribs. They gave her pain meds but she’s trying not to take them. I feel bad for her but at least she didn’t really break a rib!
I went to CRMI 3 times last week for ultrasound and blood work to monitor for ovulation. The last time was yesterday – Yes, I had to get up super early on my weekend. Hate it when that happens. But it was good that I went as they called yesterday afternoon to say it looked like I was surging. So I made sure to try the old fashioned way, just in case a miracle happens. But I’m not expecting anything since I was extra disappointed last month. Now, I have to go in on the 28th, 30th or 31st (I can’t remember) and 2nd for blood tests – specifically for progesterone levels so they can see what my numbers are and figure out how to move forward with this FET. As I said before, I’m hoping to go as natural as possible. We will see…
Anyway – this post if really about what happened Friday afternoon. See, Friday afternoon I had a phone appointment with a spiritual mediator. That’s how she referred to herself on the website anyway. I’ve mentioned, although I know I haven’t gone into detail about my energy healer… Well she recommended this person to me as someone who could provide some spiritual insight so I made an appointment. When I made the appointment it felt so far away. I was surprised last week when I realized that it was happening already; just one more example of how this year is FLYING by. I was super anxious for the call as I didn’t know what to expect. I rushed home from work Friday afternoon to prepare for the call. I decided to make a little ritual out of it and burned a candle and some essential oil. I set up my coffee table, where I planned to sit and take notes during the call, in a little mini alter like at the yoga studio when we have a full-moon circle. It was nice and creating the physical space in my cluttered living room (read: life) helped me to calm down a little and create the mental/emotional space for the call. The spiritual mediator was very gracious and explained that she would talk for about 10-15 minutes and asked that I not interrupt during that time and that we would then go back and address my questions. Her process is that she “tunes in” to me and my spirit guides before the call and makes some notes and then seems to just channel at the beginning of the call. She got a lot of native american imagery from/for me. Which is interesting because I have always felt a little cheated because I don’t have a cultural identity from family or religion. I have a little native american blood from both sides of my family so maybe I should look into that more.
In the channeling she mentioned a “dynamic shift” in life and specifically said in the Sept.-Oct. time frame there would be follow-up on something medical like a part-two to a procedure. This part was crazy since that is really what this FET is. We’re planning to try to transfer the 2nd of two frozen embryos from our Sept. 2011 cycle. This will be my 2nd FET and the timing mentioned is spot on. It wasn’t stated that this procedure would work, but the feeling I got was that it would. After the channeling I specifically asked about a spirit baby because that’s really my biggest question. She said there was a spirit baby and she let the spirit’s gender slip by calling her a “she”. The spiritual mediator apologized and said she wasn’t supposed to do that., but I don’t care and I told her not to worry that the baby could be whatever gender it wanted to be. She said I have been this spirit’s mother before and in-line with the native american imagery, that she saw the baby wrapped up in a papoose and baby moccasins. She talked a lot about the baby since that’s what I wanted to know. She also said that there was something about the number 8 and she thought it was the 8th month and that the baby might come early, but that everything would be OK. I asked what I needed to do to be successful in this next cycle and she said I should try to get more spiritual support by asking a small group of people to pray (in whatever way they want) for me when I go in for my next cycle (so get ready… I’ll be recruiting you guys!). She also said the words “PH level of your womb”. I’m not sure of the specific statement because it wasn’t a big deal when she said it, but I heard it and wrote it down. It was something like making sure the PH level of my womb was right, so I think I need to look into that asap! There was lots more and not all of it makes sense right now but it was definitely an interesting experience.
I was totally relaxed before the end of the call and felt energized by all she shared. Of course, how and if any of this plays out remains to be seen. I’m trying not to get ahead of myself here, but it really was an interesting experience and something I would do again. Overall, I think the most valuable outcome from the call is that it made me feel hopeful for the future, and that is something I haven’t felt much of for awhile. So visualize a tiny pair of moccasins and cross your fingers for me that this next cycle has a happy ending.