Happy Monday Internet peeps. It’s a slushy mess here in the northeast today but I have warm boots and ski pants and I made the trek from my apartment in NYC to my NJ office today. Lots of folks stayed home today so at least it’s an easy day in the office. And bonus, since it’s still snowing I’m going to leave early too!
There are some happenings that I’m not ready to blog about yet but know that things are changing dramatically for me right now and I’ll hopefully be filling you in soon. In the meantime, I am gearing up for cycle #7. A part of me feels like this might be my last cycle, or at least my last cycle for awhile. This cycle will most likely use the remainder of my insurance coverage and I certainly can’t pay out of pocket for a cycle. This along with all the other changes in progress make this feel like my last shot. Therefore I am pulling out all the stops. I’m warming up my credit card and getting ready to use it. In fact I used it once already for acupuncture last week. Oh how I wish my insurance covered acupuncture… Oh well. I figured I should get back to regular acupuncture treatments. I don’t want to doubt or regret any choices I make in preparation for this cycle and I know that acupuncture can help. I’m also looking into other alternative treatments to aid in this last-ditch-all-in effort for IVF cycle #7. I made an appointment for a Mayan Abdominal Massage for tomorrow evening so I’ll let you know how that goes.
There is a little bit of fear in all these preparations, the fear that it might not work. I know this fear well. But all I can do is make the best decisions I can and hope for the desired outcome. I know I am blessed to have had the opportunity for so many cycles, many of you are not so lucky to live in a state the mandates coverage. I am incredibly grateful for the insurance plan changes that have allowed me to try so many times. And as I hope that this WILL be my last cycle… because it works, not because of losing my insurance, I send this little prayer out to the universe for lucky number 7 to be my healthy-take-home-rainbow-baby.