Holy crap, it’s December already! I’ve been wanting to post for weeks but just can’t seem to make the time these days.
Happy Holidays everyone. I love the holidays but somehow it just doesn’t feel the same this year. I think part of it has to due with the fact that I live in a new city and I really don’t get out much. This year I went from living in NYC where I’ve been since the summer of 1999 to living like a hermit in North Philadelphia. Don’t get me wrong, Philly is a cute city. But, it’s so small in comparison to NY and where I live feels like suburbia and not “the city”. In NYC I had to leave my apartment and walk to the subway to get anywhere. Here I have a car and don’t walk further than a parking lot’s distance to or from anywhere. (This has actually been a blessing throughout this pregnancy because I don’t think I could do all that walking in this condition.)
I’m so used to seeing the decorations and lights go up on the city streets and in my neighborhood that it feels a little disappointing to not have that anymore. My current neighborhood does not have any lights or decorations and it’s a bummer. We, of course, have strung lights in our apartment. In fact I’m usually a day-after-thanksgiving-decorating kind of gal but I made my husband start working on it early in case baby made an early arrival. Aside from the lights we haven’t done much decorating and we have yet to go get a tree. Again something I usually do asap after thanksgiving. So I’m not quite sure what the deal is with me but it just doesn’t feel very holiday-ee right now.
One possible cause would be work. The past 2 months have mostly been a blur. This new job is great and working from home is mostly fantastic. BUT, it’s been super stressful. Trying to figure out this new role and do my very best work (in the short time before my baby is born) has been taking SO MUCH time. It’s not unusual for me to be working 15 hour days lately and that’s hard to handle at this point. Also I’ve been sick pretty much since I started this job in late September. I got a cold during my orientation program and inevitably gave it to my husband too. When I finally started getting better he gave it back to me and I got sick all over again. So that’s a good 2 months of upper respiratory infection type colds with limited ability to take anything to help. I am FINALLY felling better. I do still have an occasional cough but have definitely kicked the illness.
Another possible cause could just be the baby. I’m 38 weeks today. Can you believe it? It blows my mind that one day very soon my baby girl will be making her grand entrance (or is it exit?). I am starting to get quite uncomfortable and she’s in there rolling around and occasionally using my bladder as a trampoline which doesn’t help. Surprisingly, I really haven’t gained much weight throughout this pregnancy. I think it’s because I’ve been so sick (I’ve spent the past 34 weeks throwing up 3 times a week on average) and have the reflux/heartburn issues on top of that. The pepcid had been doing a decent job of helping with the reflux until very recently. In the past week or two it’s back with a vengeance. I think she’s just running out of room in there and is squeezing everything else out of the way. Oh, did I ever mention that I failed my 1 hour glucose test? Well I did. And I refused to take the 3 hour test. With this new job I just don’t have 4+ hours to take out of a workday to get it done and I didn’t like the idea of doping it anyway so I’ve been monitoring my blood sugar with a glucometer like a diabetic. I’ve been trying to cut way back on the carbs and other sugars and eat more meat, fats and non-starchy veggies. My number are not too high and don’t really indicate gestational diabetes. But they are sometimes borderline and to me that’s an indicator of poor insulin response and a warning that I have an underlying issue I need to work on even after the baby comes. This is no surprise, I like the sweet stuff a little too much for my own good.
OK now on the important stuff… baby girl. It’s really amazing to feel her moving in there. Each night after dinner I wait for her to put on a show distorting my belly into strange shapes and sizes. I think I startled her yesterday. I was making myself breakfast and dropped a fork that made a loud noise and I felt her move sharply when that happened. I thought it was pretty cool for her to respond to external stimuli like that.
We did finally get to take a birth prep class at the hospital and they seem to be very mom/baby friendly overall so I’m feeling a bit better about the whole hospital thing. We also decided to hire a doula to help us navigate the hospital politics and get the experience we want (as much as is possible anyway). We have rearranged our living space to give baby a “room” within our bedroom. We put the crib together, and bought a changing table. The glider was delivered and I picked up our newborn cloth diaper rental. At this point we’re only waiting for the co-sleeper’s organic mattress to arrive and I think we would have everything we could possibly need to bring baby home.
OK I’m getting rambly and this momma-to-be is tired so I’m taking my ass to bed. But I won’t wait so long to post again. I’ve missed this space.